Wow, it's crazy reading where I was just half a year ago! Life hasn't been easier, but it has been happier. On October 1st, 2011, Greg and I started our new life in Michigan. We are still living with family but thanks to having an entire basement to ourselves, it's been incredibly nice. Greg is working and soon I will be as well. I'm not sure what I will be doing yet, but I am ready to rejoin society and find my place in the world again! I'm also going to be enrolling in school this fall! I'm going to go for teaching! It's my true passion and it's time I start working on my dreams.
Speaking of which, on January 2nd, I started Weight Watchers! It had been amazing! I have lost over 25 pounds in two and a half months! I feel in control for the first time in years!
I still don't have a lot of friends, but the ones I have are awesome. One of my closest friends has been my sister in law. I see her twice a week when we come over to visit and we always talk and laugh. Her kids, my niece and nephew have helped fill the holes left by the friendship lost in Idaho. While at times it's hard remembering that relationship, the pain and anger have slowly begun to fade and are replaced by the good memories. I know know what kind of friends to look for and who to avoid when I begin creating new acquaintanceships at work.
Moving has also drastically improved my health. I have been sick once since moving and it only lasted for a week. It's bee nice not having allergies out here and i find my asthma has lessened drastically!
Yes, life is turning around! I am smiling more often, laughing more easily and I have begun to see myself positively. While I am far from where I thought I would be I terms of independence, I am happy with the direction we are heading. Slowly but surely, I am feeling alive again, something that I do not think would have happened in Idaho.
While I miss my family back in the potato state, it's been a bit easier than the first time I was here. I think with u mom being so busy in Idaho and with more experience under my own belt, it has made the transition easier. I'm not sure if I am willing yet to call this place my forever home, it has started to become home now.
The people here are less judgmental than those in Idaho. I go dancing, and I go out on errands and don't feel as many eyes. I have a new confidence to myself. Here, no one knows me, not my former self or the insecure woman who has hid from the world. It has allowed me to be the me I want, the strong amazon who lives for herself and while not there yet, is working towards her best self ever.
Yes, this is a new page, a new chapter and rather than letting it be written for me, I am taking back control and writing for myself!
